Hrm... how to word this... I understand that the Divine are very very busy people who do wonderful and amazing things for us players and we appreciate all of that. We really do,e very single one of us. But from a player standpoint I must say it is quite discouraging when every time you join an order, a couple of months later that Divine disappears for an indeterminate amount of time. Finally find a Divine who pays attention, or actually cares that you are a member of their order and you work your fingers to the bone trying to fill figurines with millions of esteem while trying to get to Demi so you can generate more essence and actually be someone of importance and real worth or value to the order and then that Divine decides to leave the role and focus on other stuff. (that's cool. I get it and again we appreciate it and love you all for it) but understanding that doesn't make it hurt any less, doesn't make it any less frustrating or make us feel any less like our efforts and hard work is wasted.
I don't expect many to understand my feelings on it, people rarely do. If anything I expect a bunch of replies telling me how wrong I am and how all that work isn't wasted and how every tiny thing you do for an order makes you worthy or valuable (it does, but not in the same way...) *shrug* Just had to express it, maybe someone will understand where I'm coming from.
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Estarra the Eternal says, "Give Shevat the floor please."
However, with Manny showing up in Glom, I finally have a traitor to call my own. So maybe I'll finally get what the big deal is.
And help a new god/dess in the future be able to provide positive feed back to their Order members though interactions. Remember as was pointed out, gods/players alike face the 'am I good enough' 'am I wasting my time and effort' questions as well when people vanish. It simply can't be helped in some cases in others.. Well life is life and it is not fair to everyone.
I am sorry it is something that has upset you though, and I hope you take a deep breath and wish Isune good luck. She is the first Goddess I ever interacted with, and I will miss all the fun miss-says that happened on the rare occasions I and Her were in the same room.
Currently Playing in: The doctors office. One more needle and I might just lose it again.
I will stress that "positive feedback" keeps both new and old gods active. Conversely, abandonment, denigration and constant thwarting of a god (esp in his/her own org) takes its toll as well. It amazes me when an org regularly abuses and foulmouths gods then seems mystified as to why there is little divine activity in their org!
I think you underestimate how passionate some of us can get about the game.
Sometimes I feel worried about this my own self. Do gods ever get angry if I don't log into my member of their order, that they had plans for? It's not like they're going to send a message to my other character and say, "Hey, log into Soandso sometime soon so we can chill out".
Sometimes I wish they would. I know it won't happen, but it would make me grin to no end.
But they leave. They have to, of course, and that's one of the realities behind it all. The admin are people too, with lives and kids and jobs and personal troubles, and they invest a lot of time and effort into a job where they're paid, as I understand it, with warm fuzzies and goodwill, and as a reward (?) for their burdens they get to indulge in a little RP again. I've no doubt every one thinks it worth it, or they wouldn't do it in the first place, but it's not a surprise that sometimes they move on.
It's no less sad for us, though. I quit two years ago for a number of reasons, but a large part of it was the Divine. Eventru left, Zvoltz left, Viravain wasn't really a thing, and... well, Mysrai was around and being awesome, but she had much better and more entertaining order members. It was disheartening all around. Because that's the kind of impact you guys have.
And it is wasted, at least in a practical sense. Especially when a god flat out dies like Elostian or Lyreth/Eventru or others who were before my time. All that order work, poof for everybody. Hopefully the sentiment is enough. I had good times, and I would gladly do it all again. Hopefully they feel likewise. Hopefully Eventru's player can look back on his bounty of experience, remember silly things like Tomir begging Him to override the Fates and let Tomir marry his cousin while pointing out the Nightshades do it (I even dredged up Meridian and Amberle! He was not swayed), and he at least gets a chuckle.
It's also, and certainly no offense to anyone here, disconcerting when a new player takes over for an old Divine. I know @Isune threw a lot of people for a loop when she came back and moved straight to Halli. But even if it's not something that drastic, it's still a new player behind the mask (can an admin retire, and then come back years later and start up again?) Zvoltz is coming back I guess, and I'm excited about that, but... is he the same? Is he going to run his order differently? Will senpai finally notice me?
Anyways. Tl;dr is you guys are all awesome, and that makes for a very bittersweet situation. But still worth it.
Forgiveness is the fragrance that the violet sheds on the heel that has crushed it.
Just to add to Lisaera's point re: divine investment on mortals: I can't help but purse my lips at some players who tend to be given 1.) avatar 2.) cults and so on and then BAM. They just leave. They join a new order, they get these things again and then BAM. The cycle repeats itself. I can only imagine how a divine feels when players do that. As someone who has never gotten yet continuously pine for these things, I admit that I may never be able to see things from the perspective of the players who do this.
I guess that's just how it works.
But then the reward of, "Hello, little one." comes through and makes it all worth it.
Tonight amidst the mountaintops
And endless starless night
Singing how the wind was lost
Before an earthly flight
I really loved the leadup to the Elcyrion-Lacostian fusion dance event because Elcyrion's remaining order members actually had some small events showing that he was in some kinda trouble. And then when he died we all got to keep our order items, which was really cool.
I kinda wish orders could be reworked a bit though, so that maintaining them without an active Elder is something that is a bit more feasible (based on player behaviour as opposed to strict mechanics).
Though, I am a bit of a fan of the Sect system theory from MKO.