Tonight, I almost did the unthinkable. I had a knife in my hand and was fully ready to take my life. Why? Feelings of being unloved, unappreciated, even unwanted in the real world. I've been dealing with far more problems than I ever did let on in-game or even on OOC clans, though there is one that knows everything because I tell them.
For the last two years, I clung to Lusternia like a life raft, even when what I really wanted to do was scream my head off and just be done with it all. You all really have been the ones that kept me going and I sincerely thank you for it. All of you.
To tell you all the truth, I almost kept this private. Then I remembered two people. Vathael and Visaeris, real names Jason Wilkinson and Kate von Roeder.
The time for hiding is done.
Like me, I know there are others. If you are even thinking about doing what I almost did, please... talk to someone. Whether it be me, someone else in Lusternia, or someone in your life, let your intentions be known before it's too late. It is not worth it. Please trust me on this.
If there is no one else, contact me. I'm willing to help anyone else who feels this way. No one should ever feel that alone, not me, not anyone.
I promise you, there are always other around who you can talk to. Even if you don't know me, even if you think you hate me, even if you think I hate you, I am always ready and willing to be a lifeline for you. Nobody should ever feel there's nobody out there who understands, because the truth is, so many of us have reasons to understand at least a little. Enough. Just enough to help you find the strength you're tired of carrying.
Czixi, the Welkin murmurs, "Fight on, My Effervescent Sylph. I will be with you as you do."
Aian Lerit'r, Lead Schematicist exclaims to you, "A *paperwork* emergency, Chairman!
A giant panda bounds into view, flanked by a gargantuan gorilla clad in golden plate armour. They both salute as the vision fades.