Cyndarinused Flamethrower! It was super effective.
I'll definitely be interviewing, after my first phone call/chat they seemed very interested. The salary and working from home is kind of a dream job, how can I not give it a chance. It might not even work out, but I'm going for it.
I think I'm just paranoid about opportunities that come to me when I'm not even looking after 3 years of clawing to get where I am. When did I become a commodity that companies pursue? It's the second largest bank in the US, I just have to remind myself they have their choice of underwriters, and they came to me.
Oh I'm salaried and work 40 hour weeks (usually. Is the exception). But I've found in my area and field that's pretty rare. Most of my salaried customers work much longer than I do for instance!
Was more throwing that out as a general warning that some companies expectation of salaried hours can vary wildly.
all the advice the internet gives you about 'smothering ticks' with various substances is a lot of phooey. the only thing that works as a tick repellent is citric acid. i.e lemon/orange/lime juice. splash it on your dog's trouble areas immediately after a walk to scare off all the baby ticks that haven't gotten attached yet. apple cider cut with water is a bust too. all the 'natural solutions' i've found online call for herbs that are imported or outrageously expensive here.
Everiine said: The reason population is low isn't because there are too many orgs. It's because so many facets of the game are outright broken and protected by those who benefit from it being that way. An overabundance of gimmicks (including game-breaking ones), artifacts that destroy any concept of balance, blatant pay-to-win features, and an obsession with convenience that makes few things actually worthwhile all contribute to the game's sad decline.
i'm going to go with PHOOEY! because the tick will not be smothered. my dog will scrape it off or the liquid will dry up and flake off before it gets to that point. they will not fall off. they end up dead and stay on. if i'm lucky, i can lever it off with a lice comb with the mouth parts intact.
my dog is allergic to various things and has a sensitive skin. i'm not putting dishwashing liquid on her skin.
I've had great luck with clear fingernail polish and tweezers. Liberally smear it on the tick and let it sit for about 20 minutes and the tick usually pops right off. Of course you will have to hold your dog to stop it from licking.
The Divine voice of Ianir the Anomaly echoes in your head, "You are a ray of sunshine in a sea of
Don't hate living, living is pretty great, even when it's not.
Yes, except no. It never is. It fluctuates between "survivable" and "why bother surviving-able" and tonight is one of those latter nights when years of frustration and confusion just come pounding down on my head like a sledgehammer and I find that I have to go to some random forum and rant blindly just to let off some steam. Long story short, I still hate living. Short story long, I feel like I have hated living pretty much my entire life. I literally can't remember the last time I felt really at peace and relaxed. I find myself constantly in a situation where I feel like a fool for trying, for bothering. I hate school because it's too easy and I hate that I can't focus on learning anything. I want to learn, yet the only way society accepts you knowing something is through a so severely broken system that I spend more time pondering suicide than homework. I'm bitter, frustrated and angry because I've got no idea how to enter the world or deal with people. I've no idea how to get a job where I'm actually mentally challenged, which isn't helped by the fact that I want a job where I don't have to deal with people at all. I hate this confusing mess of a society where I don't fit in, and I don't even know if I want to fit in. I want to wake up in the morning and be glad, not sad, that there's a new day and I've got no idea how. At least I know that these really low lows are only temporary, but they're a real pain when they show up.
Everyone is a genius. But if you judge a fish on its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid.
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I'm sorry that you're feeling this way. I wish it was as simple as saying that you're a wonderful and helpful person and that you're appreciated at least by more than a few people on this random forum on the internet (myself included). Since it's not that simple, however, I humbly offer you something to distract you from those feelings for a little while.
Have some silly cats. You deserve them. And on a more serious note, I hope you know you can reach out if those feelings are especially difficult to get through. Everyone here wants nothing but the best for you.
"Oh yeah, you're a naughty mayor, aren't you? Misfile that Form MA631-D. Comptroller Shevat's got a nice gemstone disc for you, but yer gonna have to beg for it."
Don't hate living, living is pretty great, even when it's not.
Yes, except no. It never is. It fluctuates between "survivable" and "why bother surviving-able" and tonight is one of those latter nights when years of frustration and confusion just come pounding down on my head like a sledgehammer and I find that I have to go to some random forum and rant blindly just to let off some steam. Long story short, I still hate living. Short story long, I feel like I have hated living pretty much my entire life. I literally can't remember the last time I felt really at peace and relaxed. I find myself constantly in a situation where I feel like a fool for trying, for bothering. I hate school because it's too easy and I hate that I can't focus on learning anything. I want to learn, yet the only way society accepts you knowing something is through a so severely broken system that I spend more time pondering suicide than homework. I'm bitter, frustrated and angry because I've got no idea how to enter the world or deal with people. I've no idea how to get a job where I'm actually mentally challenged, which isn't helped by the fact that I want a job where I don't have to deal with people at all. I hate this confusing mess of a society where I don't fit in, and I don't even know if I want to fit in. I want to wake up in the morning and be glad, not sad, that there's a new day and I've got no idea how. At least I know that these really low lows are only temporary, but they're a real pain when they show up.
It'll get better, you just got to keep on fighting and chugging along. There's plenty of resources to help you learn online, everything from Coursera, Udemy, Edx to youtube videos or whatever. I'm not sure what it is you want to learn. In my experience, things tend to work out, but you have to work at it.
You definitely fit in, somewhere, and it's really up to you to find it, but I promise there is such a place.
I don't think coming to the forums and ranting is silly. Not at all. Seeking help, especially when you feel like there probably isn't any to be had, is never ever silly. To paraphrase a very favourite comic of mine, you are fighting an incredibly tough battle and looking for a weapon because you've been disarmed. I've been there, as have more people than you'd think, probably a lot of whom you know.
What sort of weapon (help) you need or want to take is entirely up to you. You might not be ready to really look for help, and that's okay too. I genuinely believe that we process a lot of things subconsciously and so we can't always tell when/why we're 'ready' to change something. But just incase, I want to give you a list of places that have helped me and people I care about.
This website has a great list of links - though a lot are UK specific they also have some really good online resources too. There are almost certainly multiple major mental health/suicide prevention charities in your country. Look them up and see what they suggest. There are lots of different forms of help, not just telephone lines - there are places that have IM services or email, whatever you feel comfortable with. This tumblr meanwhile has a great list of mental health-specific resources as well as more like the previous.
For other resources that are focused on what you can do for yourself in the moment, try this list. If you google things like 'tumblr self-care masterpost' or 'tumblr mental health support masterpost' you get a ton of really great resources put together by people who know what they're talking about because it's things that have helped them.
If you want to get help in the form of medication, talking therapy or similar, there are ways to do so cheaply and often quickly. This post is great for US resources and this one for UK (if you're elsewhere, again, a quick googling will sort you out). Your school almost certainly have resources that you can use, which are often free. Look for your student support services or similar and see what they offer (lots do drop in clinics, crisis support, even long-term talking therapy).
Like I've said, you might not be in a place where you're ready to use these things, but I want you to have all of them. And if you ever want to talk to someone, whenever it might be, you can always email me (maylea@lusternia.com). Sometimes it's easier to talk to someone you don't know so well. I'm qualified in suicide intervention and first aid and have personal experience of depression and suicide.
Finally, and most importantly, cheerleader cat is on your side too.
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Cyndarinused Flamethrower! It was super effective.
Sorry this is long, your post hit home for me a little.
I hope it's of some small consolation when I tell you this truth: no one starts out with any idea about how to get a job or where, or even what they want to do. It is the exceedingly rare person that wakes up one day after graduation and knows what the next step is. Most of us flounder and struggle for what feels like forever before we finally find that footing we need to make the first step. We try , and we feel foolish because we don't really know what we're doing or where we are going, and we look foolish because the world is tough, and not all that accepting of young people trying to find their way.
The system says go to school, school does virtually nothing to prepare you for reality, and then you are thrust into it and told to just figure it out. You are nowhere near the first person to experience this anxiety and complete loss of direction, trust me. I've been there myself. 5 years ago I was making 15k a year as a waiter with no direction, ruined credit, and no clue as to where I should even start....and I had been out of school for a while. I sat in my closet at my mother's house (because there's where my desk fit) playing Lusternia for years, just terrified of life. I believe now, looking back on it with some clarity, I was suffering from a degree of depression. I had no motivation, no goals, no idea, no clue, no nothing. The world was there, and I was terrified of it. I was terrified of looking stupid at an interview, I was terrified of looking stupid asking for a job, I was terrified of being told no, I was terrified of even trying. So I didn't and, not coincidentally, things did not get better.
I'll tell you the god's honest truth. A company just asked for my resume, I gave it, and I have no idea what to do next. Not as in I don't know the interview process or that they'll contact me etc etc etc, I mean what do I actually do when I get it. Am I actually equipped for this job? Do I really know what I'm doing at all? It's literally terrifying to think about. Adulthood is terrifying to think about. There are days where you just wake up and you go "what the fuck am I doing." You don't talk about it, because you're an adult, and as an adult you're just supposed to know. You're supposed to act like your have it all together even when you don't.
I tell you this because I want you to know it's okay to not have it all together. It's okay to be terrified of what's next, to have no idea what you are doing, and to stumble around looking stupid. But you stumble along because you just have to, because going back is not an option, and eventually you stop stumbling all the time. You don't ever stop looking stupid or having no idea what to do in some situations, and those people you look at and think "they have it all together," trust me, they don't. They're just really good at bullshit. That's adulthood, really. Just getting really good at convincing the world with whatever brand of bullshit is specific to your situation.
Adulthood is just getting really good at faking it when you need to. We are all just lost kids some days, and it's okay. Things get better. You won't always know when, you may not even realize things are better until you realize things are better (which sounds stupid). One day goes by and you don't think about it. Then another and another. Sometimes you just wake up one day and think about where you were 5 years ago, and you blow your own mind with how you managed to survive that whole time, improve yourself, and kept slogging forward somehow.
It's cliche and lame, but it gets better. Life is worth living, sometimes today sucks and it's just about survival. So you survive for tomorrow, or you survive for next week, or next month. You survive because you're not alone in all this mess, and you're surrounded, whether you know it or not, by people who just survived like you are now, and eventually it got better. It's worth it, as a southern gay man who was ridiculed and threatened for most of his life, who almost lost his father to cancer who doesn't even speak to him anymore because he's a born again baptist, who grew up with a single mother suffering from severe depression, who flunked out of college and lived in a closet (by choice) for years, who just survived because that's all I could do sometimes, it's worth it. One day things are just worth it, and no one will be able to tell you when or how or what you'll be doing when you realize it. One day you just know, and you're glad you had the strength to survive. You're PROUD that you had the strength to survive.
I admit I don't have some of the same challenges as you do, but I can tell you that if you need help, get help and there's no shame in that. We all need help, some adults are just too stubborn or proud to ask for it. In a world full of people who don't know what the fuck they are doing, the bravest people are often the ones who are willing to admit it.
Gosh, I sound like a cheeseball and so out of character for me. I just recently had the "adult" revelation about my own life, so maybe that's why it hit me so hard. I look back and I'm glad my story didn't end as the gay boy in rural texas crying himself to sleep, hoping to never wake up again.
I went to Gamestop last night and picked up a copy of Pokemon: Omega Ruby. Open it up this morning, and guess what the employee forgot to put in the box...
At some point in the past few years, my feet appear to have shrunk. I used to always wear a 9 or 9 1/2 shoe, but now I'm down to an 8 somehow! I'm wearing an older pair of dress shoes for family Thanksgiving lunch/dinner stuff, and they're juuuuust big enough to slide around on my foot a little. Fortunately I don't plan on doing much walking around, but the realization that I need to replace all my nice shoes is kind of a pain. Feet, what is your deal?
I went to Gamestop last night and picked up a copy of Pokemon: Omega Ruby. Open it up this morning, and guess what the employee forgot to put in the box...
That is the exact reason why if I buy anything from eb games (nz's equivalent of gamestop) I check the purchase before I leave - chances are that they may/will have messed something up
Never put passion before principle. Even if you win, you lose.
If olive oil comes from olives, where does baby oil come from?
If vegetarians eat vegetables, what do humanitarians eat?
Have you lost weight recently? I lost a large amount this past year, and my feet dropped by 2 shoe sizes.
I actually weigh a little more than I did when the bigger shoes still fit right. Thinking about that is making me even more confused about the whole thing. :-/
Feet also shrink as you grow older, unless you are on roids IIRC...
I'm only 25! I don't think I'm quite at the shrinking part of "growing older" yet.
EDIT: OMG I figured out how to fix the broken quote thing when it happens!! :O
Press the "Show Source" button and find this part at the beginning of the quote. When it breaks, it's because that closing tag is missing. Just add in the </span> yourself and that'll fix it right up. Yay!
Phoebus is settling down. That's why she's shrinking.
Everiine said: The reason population is low isn't because there are too many orgs. It's because so many facets of the game are outright broken and protected by those who benefit from it being that way. An overabundance of gimmicks (including game-breaking ones), artifacts that destroy any concept of balance, blatant pay-to-win features, and an obsession with convenience that makes few things actually worthwhile all contribute to the game's sad decline.
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Was more throwing that out as a general warning that some companies expectation of salaried hours can vary wildly.
I hate math, but at least I got a pass on my latest assignment.
maybe i can try lemon grass?? i don't know!
my dog is allergic to various things and has a sensitive skin. i'm not putting dishwashing liquid on her skin.
It'll get better, you just got to keep on fighting and chugging along. There's plenty of resources to help you learn online, everything from Coursera, Udemy, Edx to youtube videos or whatever. I'm not sure what it is you want to learn. In my experience, things tend to work out, but you have to work at it. You definitely fit in, somewhere, and it's really up to you to find it, but I promise there is such a place.
That is the exact reason why if I buy anything from eb games (nz's equivalent of gamestop) I check the purchase before I leave - chances are that they may/will have messed something up
If olive oil comes from olives, where does baby oil come from?
If vegetarians eat vegetables, what do humanitarians eat?
Vive l'apostrophe!